Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Oh My Heart....

Sam and I just went to the school to get him registered for primary. What a bittersweet experience! I am so happy for him but I miss him already.

I am going to miss his chatter, hearing him talk to his cars and other toys, listening to things crash in his room as he plays crash bash, cuddling while we read all curled up together. I'm going to hate eating my lunch alone, walking through the house without a million questions about what I am doing, and not having helping hands when I bake, and vacumn, fold laundry and walk the dog.

I am excited for all that he is going to learn and the friends he is going to make. I am happy to know he will get to experience new things, and be challenged in new ways. I am thrilled that he will learn to be independant of me. I am looking forward to seeing how he reacts to being one of the "big kids".

I am scared for this new phase of my life. I have been a mom at home for the last ten years. I'm not sure who I am outside of that. This is a chance for me to grow and learn more about myself, to challenge myself to new things. A time for change...I'm not sure where this new road will take me, and that makes me nervous. I'm not so sure that I am ready!

7 comments:

Andie said...

You and I will be crossing the bridge together. However, kindergarten is only 2 hours a day here. So I will be gently eased into this whole last baby going to school thing.

Better Safe Than Sorry said...

i was ok with registration, it was the drop off on the first day, i cried and cried.

julia said...

Alison, outside of being a stay-at-home mom, you are a great friend with a huge heart for the people around her that are aching for one reason or another. You are a home maker. You are a great wife (I know from watching you, not from experience). You'll be ok.
I'm excited for both Sam and you! You're going to find stuff that you LOVE doing on your own again, and have more time to do Alison stuff. you'll be ok, I'm sure.:)

Jodi said...

Oh, that is the hardest moment ever! I feel for you. I hoped it would get easier with each kid but it didn't.

(((HUGS)))

Karen said...

For many years my son came home for lunch from school. The hardest thing for me was when he changed schools and I had to pack him a lunch early in the morning and then not see him again till late afternoon. Can Sam not come home from school for lunch with you? If possible, I recommend it, because it helps keep some structure in the day.

(By the way, I am back to my old Blogger blog again. No more WordPress for me. Heh.)

Matt, Christine, Elijah, Joseph & TBA said...

Alison, you are such a wonderful mom! Sam, Claire and Daniel are so fortunate to have you. I can't imagine signing my youngest up for school - or even my first for that matter! I am excited to hear what you'll be up to in this next phase of life.

Anonymous said...

I can't imagine sending my one year old to school. I hear you can cry...when they run off with their school lunch!

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